Decided

I am no longer split in two, but rather I am one again.
I've realized what I want, what I need.

I thought I wasn't lonely, and, I know I wasn't, but there was still something missing inside of me that will always be missing inside of me because it belongs with her. It will be missing until she returns with it. I say until to be hopeful because, obviously, she may not return, but I don't live in a world of 'ifs'.

Commonly asked questions.

"What if you had a million dollars?"

Well, I don't.

"What if you were famous?"

Well, I'm not.

Sure, it is possible to get there, so ask me again if I'm ever there.

I know what I want.
I will rephrase that...
I know what I want that I can have, things I want to do that I can do.
If I had what I wanted, I wouldn't have had any dilemma to begin with.

I am decided.

I am hopeful.