Slightly Worried.

This is different.

I never...well, hmm..

I'm not entirely sure how to put this or even approach thoughts to this.

I feel like I could do so much more to make things so much better but I am not even sure where to begin. Up until this point, everything seemed pretty good and now I'm worried. These feelings that I was unaware existed exist to a greater extent than I had previously assumed. While I selfishly gorge away at the bountiful fruit of life that lays in front of me, there are others who teach us the proper way to peel the fruit, to make it taste it's very best while theirs sits there ripening to a prime and slowly beginning to rot, so by the time they take a bite, what was once a delicious treat has thus became nothing more than a bruised and aged piece of fruit that they polish with the front of their shirt to make it look shiny and pleasantly edible. Instead, it's not what it really seems to be. How can I do something...can I do something? Do I look for the variables and calculate if there is anything I can do based on what information I accumulate and document. Is it dependent on a certain event that I am unaware of happening? Or is it independent of the surrounding world and the only answer can truly be found within the being itself? I'm not going to ask any questions unless I feel I need to, but I still am slightly worried, and I hope there is never a need for me to become very worried.

I am much more than what people think I am to them.
If I am needed, I am here.